In Serious Denial [entries|friends|calendar] santi76 [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

fuck [06 Jul 2008|01:00am] [ mood | hopeful ] i have never wanted anything more or been more scared in my entire life cmt

feelings [09 Jun 2008|12:08am] i've never felt like this i feel like you're looking at me naked but i am fully dressed i don't even know what i'm saying it's just too damn hard to feel this way at the worst possible time what do i say? how do i act? i can't even imagine and i don't know how to react please let me know where i stand in your life it would make this a lot easier do i press on? or just give up? i'm sick of life's bullshit i just want some answers tell me yes or no cmt

i want it so bad [31 May 2008|11:22pm] how dare you say that to me so offhand when you have no fucking idea i wish for that every day of my life it just hasn't happened yet and i'm not going to have it happen with you or anyone else whom is less that what i desire it's not worth it so stop pretending like you care i feel sick because i long for it and i can't talk to anyone about it i know i need to be patient but it sucks i want it now cmt

It's about that time again [23 Mar 2008|12:02am] That time when I start regretting some of the decisions i've made and start wishing that my life were better or worse i can't decide i know i want something more than what i have an amazing talent or a friend that will always be by my side i think that in the future i will find what i'm looking for but i am tired of waiting for my life to start or maybe it already has and this is as good as it gets maybe all i need is to try is just one more chance to make it all happen it's about that time again when will it come next? cmt

i never understood the am [21 Feb 2008|12:17am] it's late again my brain feels melted and it's dripping out my ears i can't think anymore about any of it i want to sleep and let the dreams take me away from real life my headaches are causing me to loose my mind and i can't find it anymore will this pain plague me forever i feel as though i am swimming in a pool of despair and i've forgotten my floaties and i'm sinking under and i'm flapping my arms trying to stay afloat but my lips are dipping below the water and my lungs are filling with liquid my body is shutting down and i am no more cmt

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